Last few days
Well I haven't had time to be on her lately sorry!!!! I really have missed journaling my days but I have a lot to say!! First off my poppop died on Friday morning around 4 am. He went peacefully. The dr's pulled out his breathing tube and feeding tube and he breathed for quite some time on his own but we all knew that he wouldn't last 24 hours. We all got to say goodbye and give him a kiss and pray for him so all is good. He didn't suffer for years or have to go through test after test after test he got sick and died peacefully I'm sure many of us wish to go the same way. He was active up until the night he went into the hospital so he had a great active life and was known and liked by many!!! May you rest in peace Lionel "Big Boy" Shockley!!!
Wednesday was my birthday and Tom and I went to Bethany Blues for lunch/dinner...I really like it the food there it is a nice place to go I recommend it!! After we got done eating we went to Ancient Art to see our friend George and Tommy got the breast cancer ribbon tattooed behind his ear. That was a nice present!!! I have more good news that I got Thursday morning....all my test results came back negative!!! I don't have cancer anywhere else in my body praise the Lord!!! My left ovary had a low resolution so I have to go have a pelvic ultrasound done but my dr doesn't really think its anything to worry about since I'm premenopausal could be a cyst on my ovary or any number of things!! If I should find one good thing about chemo it would be that chemo will probably put me in early menopause!!! Yes that excites me because I won't have to deal with the 10 years of hot flashes mood swings etc!!! Yes I really needed to find something good about chemo!!! I will start chemo in about 2 weeks so I had to find something to hang on to....I really am believing that for the most part I will be ok through this but I still need your prayers!!! Next week is BUSY..we are celebrating Bryce's 10th birthday Monday night at Cultured Pearl yum...them poppops viewing for the family is Monday night...Tuesday is the funereal...Wednesday is my appt. at John Hopkins...Thursday is Dr. Demnicki to check out my chemoport...Friday is genetic counseling at Tunnel Cancer Center...so as you can see there is no rest for the me!!! Somewhere in there I need to run back to the Pink Ribbon and pick up my wigs!! My surgery on Friday went well...the chemoport is in and causing me pain!!! Yes it is painful but that pain will be gone in just a couple of days....was sick after the surgery cause of the anesthsia. Then today I took a percocet and got sick again so no more surgery and no more percocet....ok I just took a percocet but I made sure my belly had PLENTY of food in it!!!
Tonight my church had a Harvest Tea Party for the women...oh my it was sooo nice!!! Each table had a sponsor (I think thats what they were called) and the sponsor was responsible for decorating the table and bringing the tea and food well let me tell you if they do this again and you go ask to be at Nichole Bakers table!!! Oh my she totally went above and beyond....we started out with spinach dip in a small philo cup...delicious....then pumpkin soup....oh myyyy....then we had pork with lettuce and a sauce (can't remember) on a crouissont....WOW O WOW....then for dessert we had pound cake with raspberries and blueberries with cool whip and mulling spice mixed in the cool whip and let me tell you.....it was sooo good I almost hit her!!! I know that sounds crazy but whenever something is good or I get great news or I hear something that just strikes me as a good word I usually hit someone cause it makes me happy....its usually my husband poor guy but that way I know I won't get hit back cause not many people understand when I hit them LOL!!!! Its a good thing!!
Well goodnight I love ya guys and let me remind you that the Lord is good!!! Even though the Lord told me that my results were gonna be negative I still had to hear from the doctor those words.....God is listening to us and He wants to heal us we just have to believe that He can and He will!!! We don't understand why He allows us to go through things but let me assure you that He NEVER leaves us as we walk our journey!!! Matter of fact He goes before us so we have no reason to fear so I have no reason to fear my journey through chemo....goodnight and trust the Lord Jesus He loves you soooo much!!
Wednesday was my birthday and Tom and I went to Bethany Blues for lunch/dinner...I really like it the food there it is a nice place to go I recommend it!! After we got done eating we went to Ancient Art to see our friend George and Tommy got the breast cancer ribbon tattooed behind his ear. That was a nice present!!! I have more good news that I got Thursday morning....all my test results came back negative!!! I don't have cancer anywhere else in my body praise the Lord!!! My left ovary had a low resolution so I have to go have a pelvic ultrasound done but my dr doesn't really think its anything to worry about since I'm premenopausal could be a cyst on my ovary or any number of things!! If I should find one good thing about chemo it would be that chemo will probably put me in early menopause!!! Yes that excites me because I won't have to deal with the 10 years of hot flashes mood swings etc!!! Yes I really needed to find something good about chemo!!! I will start chemo in about 2 weeks so I had to find something to hang on to....I really am believing that for the most part I will be ok through this but I still need your prayers!!! Next week is BUSY..we are celebrating Bryce's 10th birthday Monday night at Cultured Pearl yum...them poppops viewing for the family is Monday night...Tuesday is the funereal...Wednesday is my appt. at John Hopkins...Thursday is Dr. Demnicki to check out my chemoport...Friday is genetic counseling at Tunnel Cancer Center...so as you can see there is no rest for the me!!! Somewhere in there I need to run back to the Pink Ribbon and pick up my wigs!! My surgery on Friday went well...the chemoport is in and causing me pain!!! Yes it is painful but that pain will be gone in just a couple of days....was sick after the surgery cause of the anesthsia. Then today I took a percocet and got sick again so no more surgery and no more percocet....ok I just took a percocet but I made sure my belly had PLENTY of food in it!!!
Tonight my church had a Harvest Tea Party for the women...oh my it was sooo nice!!! Each table had a sponsor (I think thats what they were called) and the sponsor was responsible for decorating the table and bringing the tea and food well let me tell you if they do this again and you go ask to be at Nichole Bakers table!!! Oh my she totally went above and beyond....we started out with spinach dip in a small philo cup...delicious....then pumpkin soup....oh myyyy....then we had pork with lettuce and a sauce (can't remember) on a crouissont....WOW O WOW....then for dessert we had pound cake with raspberries and blueberries with cool whip and mulling spice mixed in the cool whip and let me tell you.....it was sooo good I almost hit her!!! I know that sounds crazy but whenever something is good or I get great news or I hear something that just strikes me as a good word I usually hit someone cause it makes me happy....its usually my husband poor guy but that way I know I won't get hit back cause not many people understand when I hit them LOL!!!! Its a good thing!!
Well goodnight I love ya guys and let me remind you that the Lord is good!!! Even though the Lord told me that my results were gonna be negative I still had to hear from the doctor those words.....God is listening to us and He wants to heal us we just have to believe that He can and He will!!! We don't understand why He allows us to go through things but let me assure you that He NEVER leaves us as we walk our journey!!! Matter of fact He goes before us so we have no reason to fear so I have no reason to fear my journey through chemo....goodnight and trust the Lord Jesus He loves you soooo much!!
Dearest sister-in-Christ, you never cease to amaze me! Your faith, strength and encouraging attitude is such an inspiration. Along with the Lord, if I had to walk through a difficult time in my life, and if I began to feel overwhelmed and discouraged, I would want to have you by my side. Thank you for sharing this journey that you have been on with all of us. You are lifted up to the Lord in love and in prayer. Along with you, we are praising the Lord for All that He has done, and will continue to do for you during this time. You are much loved.
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