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Ok I have a pretty colorful past and have tried many different drugs but I am here to tell you that I haven't been this high in years!!! WOW I can't believe this!! After my 2nd Taxol treatment I developed neuropathy and my doctor gave me Lyrica and when I first started taking it I felt the same way. So yesterday I went to doctor and told her the medicine was working but was wearing off in between taking it so she uped my dosage and I'm just sitting here starring at my computer!! Yes my body will get used to it and I won't feel like this for too long Praise the Lord!!! I just want to sleep!! I just keep telling myself one more treatment I can do ANYTHING one more time!! With the Lord's help all things are possible!! I just love Jesus with all my heart and soul and I can see everytime the Lord carried me and held me close.....He has held me and carried me everyday since I was diagnosised!! He is a gracious and merciful Lord and you will need Him at some point and time in your life.....so I encourage you to get to know Him NOW and everyday He will meet your needs!!! We don't always understand why we have to go through things but I always understand that He's in charge!! I love you all and I pray you all know my best friend Jesus!!
What you said is so true. God is in control. Since Kelly past almost 6 months ago all I could claim and say to God and myself was God is in control. I didn't understand anything else but the FACT that God is in control. And that gave me such reassurance in the middle of such a traumatic tumultuous time of grief and dispare. It's during times like these that I need to know God is there watching, guarding, hovering over me. Not at all surprised by the events going on. Full knowing what lay ahead. Full knowing what is at stake. Totally in love with us to the point that I know He is up to something because He doesn't do anything out of chance. He's methodical. He doesn't allow stuff to happen by chance.
You know, this morning my Mom and I had to take my Aunt & Grandmother to BWI airport and I was thinking before I left the house the last time I was in Baltimore near the airport was the very day Kelly passed away and for some reason a question occured to me...Why do we think as Christians that we are not going to suffer or that we can do all the right things and pray all the right prayers and have all the faith in the world and nothing bad will ever happen? For crying out loud, JESUS SUFFERED AND DIED and because He is God HE ROSE AGAIN!!! And He did it for sinners. I have faith that Jesus could have healed Kelly. I have faith that Jesus will heal you. But we must remember GOD IS IN CONTROL NOT US and PRAISE HIM FOR IT. We are not little God's and therefore we are in His hands. We say "I surrender all" but I don't know that we truely understand that statement. Sorry to ramble on this is just fresh on my heart and I haven't had anything fresh on my heart in a long time. I'll understand if you don't show this comment
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