Yes Alisha I know what you mean.....we sent Jesus to the cross and then we think just because we are Christians that we shouldn't suffer...WOW what a big mistake...Jesus was inoccent He was perfect He never sinned He loved everyone He was honest He was more forgiving then we will ever be and yet we killed Him!!  A horrible death tortured Him beyond recognition and yet we still think we shouldn't have heartaches and pain!!!  Who do we think we are...we are sinners who need a savior so we can go to heaven so while we are on this earth we are gonna have pain and troubles BUT if we turn it all over to Jesus all is good!!  Thank you for sharing your heart it makes my day when people share their hearts with me!!!  You know Vickie told me one time and I have never forgotten it!!!  I wanted to do something and I wanted it to be done immediatly and I asked Vickie to be praying for me and all I heard her say was.....God knew what He wanted you to be doing 10,000 years ago!!!  That was so powerful to me and I think about that all the time!!!  He knows whats gonna happen and He's already gone before us!!!  Thats good news and I will never forget that one piece of advice that she gave me cause it has really reshaped my life!!!  Please keep sharing your heart it makes me think a little deeper!!  Love to all of you and your family!!!  May God bless you abundantly!!!