4 days after my last chemo ever
So it is Friday night 4 days after my last chemo treatment ever and I can't really feel my hands and my feet hurt and most of the bones in my body hurt and then I get an excrutiating pain in my right leg that almost knocks me right off my feet!! Praise the Lord I am done!! Everytime I think about my pains I just remind myself that I have no more chemo!!! I'm still pretty swollen from the steroids but that will go away as well!! I don't know how long it takes for the steroids to get out of your system but let me tell you steroids are something else!!! They give you energy however the other side effects are not even worth it!! So now if I could ask you all for a specific prayer I would really appreciate it. I applied for disability in Oct. when I first got diagnosised and it is a mandatory 5 months wait. Well the Lord was faithful to take care of us financially through these months. I haven't heard anything from disability so would you please pray that my application will go through the first time and I will start getting disability in April. I don't want or need disability for the rest of my life but however I do need it for a little while while I go heal from all the poison being pumped in my body and the reconstruction that I will be going through. Thank you so much for your prayers you all have been wonderful to me and my family during this time of need!!! Thanks and love you all!!
You probably haven't had the energy or the even "want to" to look outside your window but girl...SPRING is a comin. I smell it in the air. I cant wait for you to be able to walk out your front door and hear the birds and smell the ground beginning to thaw. I'm really just a country girl who grew up helping my mom in her garden and this time of the year reminds me of when we would till the ground for the first time. I actually like the smell of dirt. Its fresh and smells clean to me. I just don't like it on my clothes or on my kids clothes or in my house on the floor. You know what I mean. We've talked about those boys. Now I have a little neice and you won't believe it. She loves the dirt. How precious is that. Her birthday is next week and I have bought her all sorts of garden tools. I can not wait to get her into our garden. Thats where she goes every time we get outside. Straight to the garden. Precious I tell you.
I love the seasons God gave us - all of them. Each one is special and this is your season for healing Shannon. I know I have said it before but I am so excited for you because your season of healing is no mistake. God is giving you this spring to heal. It's grace flowing down from God onto your pretty head and all over your weakened body. This is a season of opening those curtains and letting His light in, physically and spiritually. Soak up His rays.
When Mom and Dad had their greenhouses Mom and I planted thousands of flowers and before we would leave the greenhouse at the end of the day Mom would yell into the greenhouse just before she shut the door "GROW!". I guess that's what i feel like telling you "HEAL, GROW, STRENGTHEN YOURSELF IN THE LORD Girlfriend!"
Love you Shannon.
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Hi Shannon! I read your blog and try to find the words to encourage you...I read Alisha's entry and think "WOW"!!!! I can actually visualize you standing in the window and letting God's sunshine pour over you...Alisha encourages me as well as you. Isn't God good how he uses people in ways we never expect
Well...I'm praying for disability to go through without any problems, that your body recovers quickly, and I rejoice with you that chemo is DONE!!!!
Love ya!
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